There are some days in life where we end the day victoriously, finishing all our races and falling asleep to the sound of imagined applause as we complete our work for the day. Other days are ended as we crawl on our hands and knees, face almost dragging the ground as we sneak over the finish line banged and bloody.
Today has, emotionally, been like the latter.
Nothing extraordinarily awful happened. I am just currently being confronted with two stressful situations: one concerning a relationship with a friend and one concerning a relationship with an organization. The details are not important; just both weighing a bit on my mind. In the middle afternoon, I headed out to a quiet spot to read my Bible and pray. Afterwards I was feeling a million times lighter and more confident that everything would work out according to God's plans.
Then a friend from the organization-problem called, and I fell into panic again. I decided the best thing to do would be to grab my ipod and hit the road for a 6+ mile run. I ran all the way out to the lake trail and began to feel really great! Once I hit the lake trail, though, searing pain began to pulse through my gimpy short right leg.
Not only did I have two problems on my mind, but I also was 3+ miles away from home and unable to run.
Awesome.
With nothing else to do, I started thinking about the two problems again. No matter which way I cut it, my main struggle came down to the fact that in both situations, I was unsure of the outcome and had no control over any circumstances that would lead to the outcome. I was frustrated and afraid that, even though I knew that God would take care of everything, the ending of the problems would not be beautiful as I hoped.
Suddenly, it was like God was there, whispering directly to my heart, saying: "Just because you can't see the ending I have planned doesn't make it any less beautiful."
Just like that, all my worries faded. I think that simple sentence basically summed up a lot of lessons I've been trying to learn in life: even when I don't know what is happening, I can trust in the One who is writing the biography of my life and can see the beautiful ending that I am unable to see from my present circumstance. He knows my hurt, He knows the beauty that is to come...and I can trust Him with my life and my everything.
Counting it all joy,
Katie
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
Random. Thoughts. 3+4: Music, the Food of Love
My two favorite bands of all time are Elephant Revival and Switchfoot. These two bands are opposite on every single possible realm of the spectrum. Both are super brilliant with great lyrics and musicality.
I have seen Elephant Revival three times and met the band once. I have seen Switchfoot once and have met the band zero times, to my displeasure :(
Right after I turned 16, I hugged two of the four members of Hawk Nelson. I am still eternally appreciative that they wrote a song about a girl named "Katie". Jason Dunn smelled really good :)
I honestly have no idea what my first concert was. I've been to so many awesome ones, and each seems better than the last!
I'm the girl who can listen to the same song on repeat for hours on end and never get tired of it. Whoever I end up marrying will have to be a patient man ;)
Brad Paisley is beautiful. The End.
I love love love the Beatles. I want to meet Paul McCartney and play "Blackbird" as a duet with him.
Speaking of "Blackbird"....9 times out of 10, I will play that song first when picking up a guitar.
One time, I thought this one preacher's kid was cute. He told me he liked Bob Dylan, and I had never heard any Dylan. I started listening and fell in love...with Bob Dylan. The preacher's kid is now married and living some place far away, haha
Last August, me and my Dad went to Grand Prairie, Texas, to see the Bob Dylan Show, including the Wiyos, Willie Nelson, John Mellencamp, and Bob Dylan! It was so hot that I almost passed out before the concert started. Then it started...and was awesome! I took a billion pictures of Nelson/Mellencamp. But when Dylan came on....he was awful. He didn't even play guitar. He sat behind a little organ-thing and grunted. And he didn't even play any of his classics! My heart cried a little bit that night.
I know that everyone in the world seems to love Queen, but I can barely tolerate them. I think I had a nightmare once where I was being chased by Freddie Mercury, and listening to them has just never been the same.
If I could have one wish, I would become an actual musician-person, going about the country with my guitar, a mike, and an amp, and gigging for tip money. Somehow, gigging and traveling would pay the bills and I would do that forever :)
Chris Rice is about 20 (?) years older than me. Despite this fact, I would marry that man in a heartbeat. I believe that his songs come from conversations he has with God. He is so in-tune to emotion and the love of our Father!
Me, Stef, and Audrey went to the Rascal Flatts "Me and My Gang" tour in OKC back in '07. We made matching shirts with our names on them :)
"Pictures at an Exhibition" by Mussorgsky is one of the most brilliant things ever. When I had to write a listening report over it for Theory I, it stretched for at least 3 pages.
Every time I hear "Christ is Risen" by Matt Maher, I want to jump up and scream praises at the top of my lungs :)
You know you've been to a good concert when you have tears in your eyes at some point of the show because the music has touched you deep inside :)
I think I need to hire somebody to sit beside me and help me make wise decisions when I get on iTunes. I am a horrible impulse-buyer when it comes to music. I rationalize thinking "I can totally use this sometime!" When I listen the next day, I realize how absolutely awful my choice was and that the song I bought is really just crap.
I believe that if you listen to the Tenth Avenue North CD, you will hear the complete gospel in 10 songs. Their lyrics are absolutely stunning.
R-E-S-P-E-C-T must ALWAYS be sung at the top of your lungs, with as much soul as you can muster ;)
I really don't like Green Day, but they always bring back fond memories of me, Matt, and Tyler sitting in the back of the band bus and thinking we were so cool for listening to Green Day's greatest hits :)
Every memory I have can be accompanied by the music I loved when the memory was made. Weird, yes.
Jon Foreman is my absolute favorite singe. He has a beautiful musical soul. Every song he writes has lyrics that are inspired by God with music that is creative and innovative. If I ever got to meet him, I would probably be so wired I wouldn't be able to speak.
Last summer, I wrote a song for the littlest kids' class at Sunray VBS. It was really cheesy, and I hoped it would die after VBS was over. Nope. The kiddos still run up and sing it to me everytime I go back home. The lyrics? "Doctor, doctor, how are you?/Can you show me something new?/Check my eyes and check my nose/Even check between my toes/Check my lungs and then please start/To check right now inside my heart/In there something new you'll see/That Jesus lives inside of me! :D
I collect hymnals. I try to get them from every place I go. Each one is so different, and so beautiful. The only one that I carry with me everywhere is the one from Sunray. I painted the spine black so I could always find it. Inside, all my notes and chord progressions are penciled in amongst a million handwritten notes. It's a total mess to anybody but me.
I would absolutely love to see The Fray in concert!
My favorite song ever, What Wondrous Love is This. Beautiful, powerful, and what I will sing when I am in Heaven before the throne of my Savior :)
I have seen Elephant Revival three times and met the band once. I have seen Switchfoot once and have met the band zero times, to my displeasure :(
Right after I turned 16, I hugged two of the four members of Hawk Nelson. I am still eternally appreciative that they wrote a song about a girl named "Katie". Jason Dunn smelled really good :)
I honestly have no idea what my first concert was. I've been to so many awesome ones, and each seems better than the last!
I'm the girl who can listen to the same song on repeat for hours on end and never get tired of it. Whoever I end up marrying will have to be a patient man ;)
Brad Paisley is beautiful. The End.
I love love love the Beatles. I want to meet Paul McCartney and play "Blackbird" as a duet with him.
Speaking of "Blackbird"....9 times out of 10, I will play that song first when picking up a guitar.
One time, I thought this one preacher's kid was cute. He told me he liked Bob Dylan, and I had never heard any Dylan. I started listening and fell in love...with Bob Dylan. The preacher's kid is now married and living some place far away, haha
Last August, me and my Dad went to Grand Prairie, Texas, to see the Bob Dylan Show, including the Wiyos, Willie Nelson, John Mellencamp, and Bob Dylan! It was so hot that I almost passed out before the concert started. Then it started...and was awesome! I took a billion pictures of Nelson/Mellencamp. But when Dylan came on....he was awful. He didn't even play guitar. He sat behind a little organ-thing and grunted. And he didn't even play any of his classics! My heart cried a little bit that night.
I know that everyone in the world seems to love Queen, but I can barely tolerate them. I think I had a nightmare once where I was being chased by Freddie Mercury, and listening to them has just never been the same.
If I could have one wish, I would become an actual musician-person, going about the country with my guitar, a mike, and an amp, and gigging for tip money. Somehow, gigging and traveling would pay the bills and I would do that forever :)
Chris Rice is about 20 (?) years older than me. Despite this fact, I would marry that man in a heartbeat. I believe that his songs come from conversations he has with God. He is so in-tune to emotion and the love of our Father!
Me, Stef, and Audrey went to the Rascal Flatts "Me and My Gang" tour in OKC back in '07. We made matching shirts with our names on them :)
"Pictures at an Exhibition" by Mussorgsky is one of the most brilliant things ever. When I had to write a listening report over it for Theory I, it stretched for at least 3 pages.
Every time I hear "Christ is Risen" by Matt Maher, I want to jump up and scream praises at the top of my lungs :)
You know you've been to a good concert when you have tears in your eyes at some point of the show because the music has touched you deep inside :)
I think I need to hire somebody to sit beside me and help me make wise decisions when I get on iTunes. I am a horrible impulse-buyer when it comes to music. I rationalize thinking "I can totally use this sometime!" When I listen the next day, I realize how absolutely awful my choice was and that the song I bought is really just crap.
I believe that if you listen to the Tenth Avenue North CD, you will hear the complete gospel in 10 songs. Their lyrics are absolutely stunning.
R-E-S-P-E-C-T must ALWAYS be sung at the top of your lungs, with as much soul as you can muster ;)
I really don't like Green Day, but they always bring back fond memories of me, Matt, and Tyler sitting in the back of the band bus and thinking we were so cool for listening to Green Day's greatest hits :)
Every memory I have can be accompanied by the music I loved when the memory was made. Weird, yes.
Jon Foreman is my absolute favorite singe. He has a beautiful musical soul. Every song he writes has lyrics that are inspired by God with music that is creative and innovative. If I ever got to meet him, I would probably be so wired I wouldn't be able to speak.
Last summer, I wrote a song for the littlest kids' class at Sunray VBS. It was really cheesy, and I hoped it would die after VBS was over. Nope. The kiddos still run up and sing it to me everytime I go back home. The lyrics? "Doctor, doctor, how are you?/Can you show me something new?/Check my eyes and check my nose/Even check between my toes/Check my lungs and then please start/To check right now inside my heart/In there something new you'll see/That Jesus lives inside of me! :D
I collect hymnals. I try to get them from every place I go. Each one is so different, and so beautiful. The only one that I carry with me everywhere is the one from Sunray. I painted the spine black so I could always find it. Inside, all my notes and chord progressions are penciled in amongst a million handwritten notes. It's a total mess to anybody but me.
I would absolutely love to see The Fray in concert!
My favorite song ever, What Wondrous Love is This. Beautiful, powerful, and what I will sing when I am in Heaven before the throne of my Savior :)
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)