There are some days in life where we end the day victoriously, finishing all our races and falling asleep to the sound of imagined applause as we complete our work for the day. Other days are ended as we crawl on our hands and knees, face almost dragging the ground as we sneak over the finish line banged and bloody.
Today has, emotionally, been like the latter.
Nothing extraordinarily awful happened. I am just currently being confronted with two stressful situations: one concerning a relationship with a friend and one concerning a relationship with an organization. The details are not important; just both weighing a bit on my mind. In the middle afternoon, I headed out to a quiet spot to read my Bible and pray. Afterwards I was feeling a million times lighter and more confident that everything would work out according to God's plans.
Then a friend from the organization-problem called, and I fell into panic again. I decided the best thing to do would be to grab my ipod and hit the road for a 6+ mile run. I ran all the way out to the lake trail and began to feel really great! Once I hit the lake trail, though, searing pain began to pulse through my gimpy short right leg.
Not only did I have two problems on my mind, but I also was 3+ miles away from home and unable to run.
Awesome.
With nothing else to do, I started thinking about the two problems again. No matter which way I cut it, my main struggle came down to the fact that in both situations, I was unsure of the outcome and had no control over any circumstances that would lead to the outcome. I was frustrated and afraid that, even though I knew that God would take care of everything, the ending of the problems would not be beautiful as I hoped.
Suddenly, it was like God was there, whispering directly to my heart, saying: "Just because you can't see the ending I have planned doesn't make it any less beautiful."
Just like that, all my worries faded. I think that simple sentence basically summed up a lot of lessons I've been trying to learn in life: even when I don't know what is happening, I can trust in the One who is writing the biography of my life and can see the beautiful ending that I am unable to see from my present circumstance. He knows my hurt, He knows the beauty that is to come...and I can trust Him with my life and my everything.
Counting it all joy,
Katie
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